I still don't have a monitor, so I'm finding myself on campus most of the day.

New CDs are coming out from Thursday and Saves The Day.

My friend, Brian Baer, and I are trying out dating. It's going pretty well, despite my newfound fear of commitment. He likes me, so that's weird... dating someone who actually LIKES me. :-P

I still don't have any money. So I still don't have a Wii. Or food.

And... I miss Ian. Aw :-(

I need to get the jesus out of this town. And preferably out of the Spokane area. Things are on a downhill slope. There's no hope of avoiding him in this one-horse town.

I found this on Page One of the Spokane 7.
"Brian Griffing" is a misprint, by the way

Disregard last post.

This time...

So I'm trying to become a Youtube super star. Haha. If you're not a member, sign up and watch this.
Then subscribe to my channel.

Haha. I need a frickin' hobby or something.

Well, that's fucking over. Thank god, too. It was starting to get exhausting.
Is 8 A.M. too early to start drinking? Meh.

"What about the voice of Geddy Lee? How did it get so high? I wonder if he speaks like an ordinary guy..."
"I know him, and he does."
"Then you're my fact-checkin' cuz."

Everyone should listen to Pavement, if you don't already. They were pretty rad.

For being a decently educated girl, I sure am dumb as hell. Christ. I really should stick with my word.

I don't know why I'm so easily manipulated by him or why I continue to let him hurt me. But damn it, I'm done. Seriously this time. This is the last you'll hear about Brian Savage.

I feel good! Like it was all worth the wait, the heartache, the uncertainty, and even the lectures from my friends. I feel whole again. :-)

Oh! I went to Seattle to see Bright Eyes on Sunday. They were amazing, and unexpectedly ROCKED the joint.

Well, now that that's over... I think I'll start playing WOW. :-|

Herro everyone.
As always, it's been awhile...
Okee, so, as you may or may not know over the Summer I dated someone named Brian S. We broke up in October and he moved to Seattle for a couple of months. He moved back to Cheney a couple weeks ago and sent me a text message to inform me. Later that night, I saw him at Willow's (a local bar) and he pretty much completely ignored me.
It upset me, of course, but then I got over it. Tonight, he texted me to tell me he was thinking of me. Which is upsetting in itself... but I confronted him about that night... and he informed me that he was high on mushrooms that night. So... I guess I forgave him?

Anyway...
I've been seeing someone else named Brian (we call him New York) who is ACTUALLY really sweet... More on that as it progresses...

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I went to Seattle this weekend to visit my cousin Chase...
Friday morning, caught the bus to Seattle at 9 or so.
[. . .L O N G B U S R I D E. . .]
Finally arrived at the King Street Station at about 6. Chase called at told me to catch a cab to Pine & Bellevue. I dropped off my bag at his car and we started drinking at a place called The Chapel... Chase introduced me to a few of his friends. They were all really funny. And really gay. We're talking over-the-top-Carson-from-Queer-Eye gay. :-P
Later, we hiked all over the area, stopping at literally every gay bar. At one bar, we had VIP access. It was pretty out of control.
I had a lot of fun, but Chase is hard to keep up with. Fuck.
We eventually got home at like 2 or 3.

Saturday, woke up at like 10 and sat around for awhile. Eventually we showered and ran around downtown for awhile. Went shopping, ate at a place called Honeyhole. Seattle downtown at this time of year is insanity. I wouldn't recommend it if you don't like people.
Later in the evening, we went over to his friends Todd and Charlie's multi-million dollar house in Bellevue. It was slightly intimidating, but they were really nice and fed me alcohol. We sat around and watched Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer. Chase, Charlie, and Todd got ready for the party... The one Chase forgot to tell me about... that was suit/tie/nice clothes requested... :-P

Eventually we left and went to yet another multi-million dollar house where the party was located... down on Lake Washington. This was not your Eastern Washington poor kid's party. There was valet parking, catering, open bar, and a DJ. I was literally one of three girls there. And I was wearing a jean jacket, courderoys and my Chuck Taylors. Needless to say, I felt extremely out of place. But, I remedied that by getting drunk. :-P Everyone there was actually really sweet. They talked to me for 30 minutes at a time. One of them even gave me a rose... aww...

We got home at about 2:30. Chase went out again afterwards, but I was exhausted. There is no way I could live that lifestyle. His scene is way too fast for me. I had the most fun at The Chapel and Todd & Charlie's... both places we were able to just relax and drink.

I woke up Sunday Morning at 6:30, still slightly drunk. Called a cab, packed up my stuff, and said bye to Chase... who had just gotten home... At the bus station, I gave $10 dollars to a War Vet who fed me his sob story. Of course it worked on me... The bus left at 9-ish. We made it back to Spokane at 5.

This has been a long week.
Sunday night, I wrote a rant-type blog on MySpace; it was basically about how nice girls don't get a break because guys like crazy girls. It was a long one, and I'm not going to lie, it was inspired by Brian. Posted. Thought about deleting it, but never did. Forgot about it.
Tuesday night, I received a text message from Brian that said he misses me. I didn't really understand, but of course I didn't ask him to elaborate until...
Last night. I asked him if it means anything or if it was just a statement. He said "a little of both" and he is going to Seattle but will see me when he comes back. But also last night, he read that aforementioned blog, and essentially accused me of being a hypocrite. Which is only half-true. o_O;
So now, he's gone, hasn't returned my text message, and is probably really pissed off at me...
Anyway, if there was a chance of getting back together with him, it's gone now. But I'm honestly more bothered by the idea of him being actually mad at me.

On the plus side, I played Wii Sports for a few hours last night. What a fun little console!

So, my good friend Tom, who is also my partner in crime and the co-founder of our design company, Broken Gear Designs, is now also my bandmate. Yes, we're going to start a band that does acoustic covers of Rage Against the Machine songs. Haha! But... probably not.

Anyway... here's a non-cryptic, straight-shooter update for ye.
Friday night, my friend B-squared (his name is Brian Baer, but we all have retarded nicknames over here... for example, mine is "T.Mai-ness", Dawn is "DOWN", and our friend Jessi is "D") called and asked if I would re-dye his hair black. So we headed to Safeway to pick up some dye... and while there, I got the brilliant idea to bleach my hair. Baer was no help at all... "It will look AWESOME" he said... last time I ever listen to a straight boy about hair.
Anyway, needless to say it looked like ass. LIKE ASS. I took a picture with my phone, so, if you want to see it, I could picture-message you (only if you're on Verizon Wireless, so it's free). Yesterday, I bought black hair dye and tried to fix the horrible disaster... it didn't work... so now I have hair that is literally indescribably bad. You'll have to come visit me to see (I'll be home Tuesday... weather pending!!)
Also, yesterday (man, busy day) DOWN B-squared and I went to Best Buy... I got Tenacious D's new album... It's alright, but it's hard to top their first one.

Last night, a big group of us (David-yes, David Nelson- JonGrubb, aforementioned Tom & his girlfriend, B-squared, Taylor Bailey, and me) went to Brian's band, BadRide's show. Tom and I were able to network and may have landed some design work with the band Don't Say No. We're waiting on an Email!
And the bands were good. Don't Say No was kind of a typical screamo band, but they were good at what they did. Lack Of Respect had a song about robots. :-| Best band ever. And BadRide apparently has a huge following and they aren't too bad... but Brian likes to talk a lot in between each song. I think he was a little* drunk... but I didn't talk to him much. He seemed like he didn't want me there. It was the first time we had seen eachother since we broke up a couple weeks ago. I didn't think it would be awkward because we still text message eachother everyday.
Anyway, after the show, I sent him a text message that said good job and such, and I also apologized for going if he didn't want me there. But this morning he wrote back and explained that he was actually happy I went and he tends to be "stand-offish" before shows.
So it was a good night... Except the revelation that I miss Brian a little* more than I realized.

*By "a little" I mean a lot

I really don't know what the fuck I'm doing anymore. I don't feel anything. And I'm okay with that.

The tattoo guy said the gear made me look like a robot; I've never had a finer compliment.


It never really struck me before, but I am the most hardcore of my crew from Ewen... and I'm also the cutest-teehee. (With the exception of Dennis).
Love you guys. Best tattoo ever.

Nobody fucking updates anymore.

:-o

Stolen from my MySpace blog:

I think that the easiest way to make it through the summer will be to spend each night in a drunken haze. Because spending money on alcohol is much more fun than spending money on food. Starting Sunday, this will be my plan. Don't worry, I'll be back on track for the school year...

Don't judge me, monkey.